The Fire of Truth that Burns Within

It’s day 2 of my coconut water and juice fast here in the jungle in Indonesia.

I am awake, and it’s 2:51am in the morning—I can’t sleep. I have too much energy to sleep.

As I lay in bed, stirring, I have the realization and awareness that I have been in a strong groove these last few years.

A groove that we all can easily get stuck in, and this groove has been for me the Divine Feminine / Women Circle / Priestess movement and awakening.

Now within me, I feel the strong need to get out of this groove, and have been moving out of this groove…yet it still sticks a little bit.

My soul in hungry for something deeper.

Something essential. True. Deep. Pure. Clean.

Something that is not superfluous, but deeply essential, potent, and pure.

There is a fire within me, that burns only for truth.

Its a fire that burns through everything that is not essential.

Recently, I even feel tired of all the words that I have used in the past and often see on Facebook connected to spirituality.

Words like love, divine, light worker, starseed, angel, priestess, feminine awakening, soul….Even all of this, seems rather empty to me.

I feel tired of it all.

It doesn’t thirst the quench within my deeper being.

Yet, how can I bring in a deeper dimension myself? What are the words that match this living truth and reality within me?

I thirst for something deeper, only because I know that there is something deeper.

If the deeper aspect of my being had not already realized a deeper truth, I would not be thirsty for something deeper…

It’s a texture, a fragrance, a substance that I don’t see, feel and smell too often in this realm of modern day spirituality.

The true fragrance of God is missing.

I long for the distilled truth. I feel tears in my eyes when I write this. It’s like something within me is remembering something I know, and have long since forgotten for some time…

I feel I need to let go of everything. This desire for something more essential and true is waking up within me like a volcano that is about to erupt.

I am tired of something even within myself. I am tired of diluting, simplifying, and watering down my expression.

I am tired of meaningless messaging on Facebook.

I am tried of all the posts I see on Facebook that have nothing to do with this essential God aspect that I yearn for.

I am tired of this energy that I see often of a rather loud and “look at me” way of expression, as opposed to being just natural, simple and not needing any attention or external validation.

After going into such transpersonal realms these last few years, and seeing many teachings on ultimate truths—I also desire to see people who live their deepest truth. In a personal way.

What does it mean to really embody ones personal truth? A personal truth, that blazes like fire. A personal truth, that is clear and burning. What does it mean to be a woman that is the embodiment of her personal truth?

I just feel this space within myself of something that wishes to go even deeper, then where I’ve been, that's already alive and awake within me.

What really matters to you Nicole?

What is truly essential?

What do you burn for?

What and who do you want to be in the world?

What do you stand for?

What do you want to become?

…there is a pause now in my writing. I reflect and feel these questions. I feel the answer within me—yet there is no answer in words that come. Just a strong solid knowing.

*** My first printed review copy of my book will be arriving at my home this week! 𝗦𝗼𝘂𝗹 𝗼𝗻 𝗙𝗶𝗿𝗲: 𝗗𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗲 𝗥𝗲𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗣𝗮𝘁𝗵 𝗼𝗳 𝗔𝘄𝗮𝗸𝗲𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 is soon to be released.

It's been a 5 year vision coming to fruition, and the last 1.5 year creating, translating this vision into form - a true work of art in progress that is now ready to be shared with the world very soon. 🔥

With devotion to Truth,

Nicole ❤️

The density and heaviness of the collective field

𝗜𝘁’𝘀 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗦𝘁𝘂𝗰𝗸 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗗𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗖𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗙𝗶𝗲𝗹𝗱 𝗶𝗻 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗰𝗵 𝘄𝗲 𝗟𝗶𝘃𝗲.

Often times, we don’t even see the heaviness and density of our environment and within our own life, until we see windows outside our framework that do not fit into the paradigm in which we live.

These windows or gateways, can be people that mirror to us light, beauty, unboundedness, inspiration and a liberation from the normal density and shackles in which we find ourselves inhabited by.

Often times, our mind will judge and be skeptical of these “outliers” — of people that don’t fit into the normal human paradigm of how one should feel, be, operate and live.

Especially when what they live and embody goes against the collective conditioning and framework of human misery, struggle, and confinement.

The mind will question the parameters in which these people live, and will doubt the ingenuity.

The limitations of our own minds will want to somehow dismiss and reject the possibility and potentially in which these beings mirror to us a greater potential, if we would allow ourselves to drop the heaviness and density that holds us back from being free into the essential Light of our True Nature.

Just because our environment, family, society and world at large mirror to us a certain way of being—doesn’t make it the ultimate truth, healthy, or right.

The world needs outliers and fractals of human potentiality on the planet now more than ever.

We need beacons of possibility and potentiality—those that dare us to reclaim, and stretch our imagination of what is possible for our lives when we truly commit to unleashing our full power, light, soul and frequency in the world.

We need those that don’t fit into the collective mainstream of our current times, to remind us and show us the path of embodied living in the light, a grounded realization and embodiment of Heaven on Earth.

How else will this frequency of Essential Light and Human Greatness ever be inseminated and anchored on this planet if we don’t have these few that are daring to be the transmission and embodiment of this?

The skeptical conditioned mind will say: 𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭, 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘺. 𝘓𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘭𝘦. 𝘐𝘛’𝘚 𝘍𝘈𝘒𝘌. 𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘺. 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘺𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴. 𝘊𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭?

And the truth to this question is: Everything and anything is possible.

The degree that you allow your limited constructs and beliefs to dictate the reality of your life is the degree to which you will experience your reality. Your reality is one of many realties happening simultaneously.

Instead of rejecting, judging and criticizing another reality and embodiment that may not make sense to your logical mind—how about welcoming its fragrance with curiosity and openness of what it may be here to kindle and remind you within your very being?


To be grateful for the diversity of life experiences that stretch us all, and for those outliers in our life that mirror to us new potentialities for our own lives, that challenge and dare us to leave the box of “human normal” and step into the Universe of Infinite Potentiality.

Innovation and collective evolution as a human species can only concur if we dare to cast off the old, in order to make space for the New Light of the Future that wishes to be impregnated in the Now of our current time through Us All.

The first chapter in my book being published this month is called "A New Earth and Feeling the Future." 🌎

💛 Nicole

The Mature Human Heart: Embracing Pain, Suffering, and Darkness

𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗠𝗮𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗲 𝗛𝘂𝗺𝗮𝗻 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁: 𝗘𝗺𝗯𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗣𝗮𝗶𝗻, 𝗦𝘂𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗗𝗮𝗿𝗸𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀

I was having dinner last night with a small group of friends at a fancy 5 star restaurant overlooking the Ayung river.

They asked me about my time in Canada this past summer, after reading my raw intimate sharing’s during this time in which I posted about the extremely painful and tumultuous experience visiting a mental health hospital; that sparked this fire within for the reclamation of our true humanity to be reinstated on this Earth.

As I sat in this beautifully decorated restaurant with candles and torches lit, with the most scenic view of the jungle and flowing river below, I was washed from within with a tremendous gratitude.

A deep humbleness was felt. A humbleness for the opportunity to be where I was in that moment.

I realized how grateful I was to be in such a beautiful classy restaurant in Bali with friends, and then all the memories of this past summer came flooding back to me…

Memories of seeing atrocious behaviour by hospital management, acts of abuse, dehumanizing methods used in hospitals within the mental health ward, the condescending way doctors speak to patients and patients families, the absolute lack of integrity and responsibility within health care professionals and the overall cold heartless environment that my family member was held in came flooding back into my consciousness.

I was reminded of the lack of humanity I witnessed and experienced excruciatingly strong during this summer in Canada, and how it broke my heart open even wider then before and forcefully opened my eyes to the current state of consciousness on this Earth, and the brutality that is existing within many spectrums of our society.

In this moment, in this gorgeous setting of beauty, I was reminded of the darkness and pain on this Earth right now.

I connected back to all the suffering I witnessed during this time in Canada, and all the people I could feel in this moment that are experiencing disconnection, isolation, loneliness, numbness, deep pain, sadness and depression in this moment of time around the world. Both people I know, and people I don’t know.

I felt it all in my heart simultaneously, while in this beautiful atmosphere having dinner in paradise in Bali.

Sometimes in these moments of beauty, and bliss, it’s easy to forget the simultaneous realities that are coexisting around the planet.

It’s easy to tune out the world’s suffering and pain, and isolate ourselves in a bubble of bliss and perfection.

What I have come to realize is that all realities exist, and we can tune into different realities at any moment.

My personal practice that has emerged from my own direct experience this summer, is to keep my heart and full being open to everything that is happening and existing in the world.

To not run towards beauty and push away the darkness and ugliness, but to embrace all spectrums of life, and keep my self open to the full spectrum of living and existence in every moment, wherever I am.

Whether in a 5 star restaurant in Bali, or visiting a mental health ward of a hospital.

𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘪𝘯 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴, 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘴.


𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴, 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘶𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨.

To embrace it all, full spectrum, is to live in genuine spiritual maturity on this Earth.

It’s to be wholesome—rooted in the truth of the diversity of life.

To not deny or push away anything, but to gently embrace and hold it all within our tender and powerful human hearts.

This is the power of the human heart—the capacity to hold all of Life simultaneously and all its perceived contrasts and polarities in the core centre of truth, openness and congruency.

I choose to live with eyes wide open.

I choose to see everything.

I choose to feel everything.

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I refuse to close my heart to what is unbearable and will allow life to be the crucible that cracks the radiance of the sunlight within my heart to be showered out in the world.

I will not push any emotions away—whether those that feel good, or don’t feel good. I will feel them all, and let them flow through me like a river.

I will allow the Wholeness of life to baptize me in the colours and fire of life.

And I will keep my entire heart and being open to the blessing of life in every moment.



I will remember to see the beauty and radiance in the darkness, and to see the ugliness and shadows in the light.

...Less then 1 more month until my book is published....🌹

With a strong open heart, eyes wide open:

Nicole

A life of mediocrity vs. extraordinary life

𝗔 𝗟𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗠𝗲𝗱𝗶𝗼𝗰𝗿𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝘃𝘀. 𝗮𝗻 𝗘𝘅𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗿𝘆 𝗟𝗶𝗳𝗲

There comes a point in every human's journey when you are feeling the immensity of the future calling to you—and you have a choice—stay in the old reality within the confines of what you have known, or take the leap of faith into the future that you feel and know is possible.

Old boxes are not meant to be lived in for long.

Living in the state of pure potentiality and unlimited abundance is our natural birthright.

Each and every single soul on this Earth, is One with the Creator and One with Eternity. This makes us all powerful souls when we align with this greater awareness of who we are, and plug into the current of Life that wishes to express itself through us.

True sovereignty comes when we live the fullest freedom, in every way.

Why do so many people live live’s of mediocrity?

𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑟 𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑒𝑎𝑟.

Fear limits, restricts, binds and holds humans back from fully living unleashed—and in order to live an unleashed life, you first must unleash yourself from the inner bondage within.

This inner bondage is fear clocked in disguise, it’s a subtle heaviness, a trepidation of fear and reserve that holds your soul back from fully following your heart and your deepest desires.

This inner bondage keeps you small, and trapped in an inner cage of confinement. From this bondage, you restrict yourself from the VASTNESS of Creation.

You limit yourself to a small jail cell, when you could be living in a mansion of beauty—if you had the courage and tenacity to align with your heart and fiercely align your actions with the power of your soul within.

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Fear = A Life of Mediocrity

Trust and InSpired Action = Extraordinary Living

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It’s really simple, but not always easy.

𝗘𝘅𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗿𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘀 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗿𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁, 𝘀𝗼𝘂𝗹 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗻𝗼 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁.

An extraordinary life is constructed out of love, trust, surrender, courage, grace and fortitude. All of these qualities, are qualities of the soul.

Aligning and living a congruent soul centered life, is the gateway and portal to the extraordinary.

Heart and soul manifest the extraordinary.

Fear and lack manifest the mundane.

Have you had enough of being bound in fear, lack and limitation?

Are you ready for an upleveling of magic, grace and beauty?

You have the power to decide. In every moment. We all do.

𝗣𝗦: 𝗠𝘆 𝗯𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗶𝘀 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘀𝗼𝗼𝗻 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁 𝗺𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗵...𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗲𝘅𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗵 𝗶𝘁 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱. 𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗮 𝟱 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝗷𝗼𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗲𝘆...𝗲𝘅𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗼𝗻. 🙂

Love Nicole

❤️💛💜

The children of the new earth

𝗜 𝗮𝗺 𝘄𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘃𝗼𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗹𝗱𝗿𝗲𝗻 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗡𝗲𝘄 𝗘𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗵.

The children of the new dawn, that are coming to this planet now—and for those who are already here that are the archetype of the new human.

Whether we call them 𝘐𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘨𝘰, 𝘊𝘳𝘺𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘰𝘳 𝘙𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘣𝘰𝘸 children, it doesn’t matter. What does matter, is that they are new.

It’s a new wave of consciousness coming into the Earth now, and for those who resonate with being the essence of this new generation—we simply don’t fit into this current world.

We don’t fit in, and it’s because we were never designed to fit in. We were created to build a New Earth, that matches the vibration, values, truth, and resonance of Who We Are.

Oftentimes we will feel alone and isolated on this Earth. We will feel like aliens. We will feel strange and different than the majority of humans on this Earth at this time.

𝘠𝘦𝘵, 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦.

There are millions of new generation earth creators that are here on this Earth at this time, and we are not just hundreds—not even thousands—but millions of souls that came to planet Earth to genetically upgrade the planet and this civilization into an Era of the Golden Age of Light.

We cannot be manipulated by the constructs of society, because we are rooted in our heart, and not our mind.

We are radical truth speakers and we live truth.

We don’t have to think about being authentic, because it’s who we are naturally. The question we ask ourselves is how can anyone not be their authentic self?

We hate conformity and don’t fit into the ways things are normally done, simply because its old structures that were not meant for our new essence that is here to be the upgrade of an old civilization.

In different points in humanities evolution, there are certain times where energetic upgrades of light happen on the Earth.

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My generation is a generation of truth speakers.

My generation is a generation of light.

My generation is a generation of wise old souls, galactic beings and upgraded highly attuned beings of the heart.

My generation is highly sensitive, rooted in the heart, and empathic.

My generation is a generation of healers.

My generation is a generation of innovative, creative and futuristic thinkers that are here to create new systems and technology.

My generation is a generation of leaders.

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We may be young, but never mistake the physical size of our body or 'human age' for the age and maturation of our soul.

𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 ‘𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗴’ 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿. 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗰𝗶𝗽𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗡𝗲𝘄 𝗗𝗮𝘄𝗻. ⚜️

We are the leaders of the future.

We each have specifically designed purposes for being on this Earth. We are here to create the New Earth.

Just look into our eyes, and see the difference of our generation. Eyes that shine, sparkle and transmit a deep knowing way beyond our years of being on this Earth.

The future and the ancient that meet at the threshold of a new generation of Humanity.

We are all in this together. 😇

* If you resonate and feel inspired by this post, I invite you to share it - to inspire others on the importance of the younger generation and the leaders of the future.

Love Nicole 💜

We Have Become People of Passivity, Compliance, and Sheep

𝗪𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗽𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗶𝘃𝗶𝘁𝘆, 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗶𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝗵𝗲𝗲𝗽.

𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘳𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘦 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗿𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁.

When I am travelling in airports, what I see and witness is a deeply encultured docile program running in humans.

We are like herds of sheep, shrinking ourselves at the hands of authority and bowing down to legislations and rules that have no true bearing.

Over the last few hundred years, the powers that be, have attempted to eradicate powerful human beings from this Earth.

Men and women that possessed their own self authority, sovereignty, leadership and were connected their own power—were often suppressed for being in their own power and self govererance.

After all you can’t control humans that are awakened to their own power. Leaders that choose to act from their own self knowing and diplomacy.

When I am in the airport, I see a massive herd of sheep—we have become enslaved, subservient and small.

Our true humanity has been taken from us—and that is why its time to reclaim what it really means to be an essential human.

What the earth needs now more then ever, is Lions. Leaders that awaken from the sleep of complacency and docility and rise again in their sovereign Soul Leadership.

We needs true heart and soul empowered leaders on this Earth now.

We need true leaders of light that are here to awaken the masses of sleeping souls and ignite the torch within us all to rise again in our fullest human potential and divinity.

It wasn’t just millions of women that were persecuted, tortured and burned for being powerful and aligned in their own truth—men throughout history that didn’t conform to the powers that be were also persecuted.

It makes me sad when I see that these ancient warriors, kings, knights and masculine leaders have been abolished on this Earth.

Men that are fiercely protective of life, our humanity and the values that sustain life. They too have been suppressed and the Earth needs powerful men now more then ever.

Men that no longer give away their power to external authority’s and reclaim the unbridled truth that burns in their hearts.

This goes beyond masculine and feminine power — its about the reinstatement of our true humanity back onto this Earth, and reclaiming something that has been taken from us.

Let’s all support each other to rise. To speak out against atrocities. To be active citizens of the earth that awaken from the herd and reclaim the power of the lion within us all—that of courage, nobility, strength and fierceness of the heart.

𝗥𝗶𝘀𝗲.

Nicole ❤️

The Power of Openness, Softness and Feminine Receptivity

This is a photo from today at the Glastonbury Abby, at St. Mary's Chapel. ❤️

It doesn't always feel safe to be so open in this world filled with harshness, pain, and severity.

Often it feels more safe to close ourselves, and protect ourselves with walls of defence and layers of protection around us.

Yet, when we close ourselves from the world - we lose the sweet innocent nectar in which we came to this Earth with.

We came here pure, and we shall always remain pure no matter what circumstances life has presented to us.

Our purity is rooted in the deepest radiance of our innermost being. Its the light within that is indestructible and incorruptible.

Openness is powerful.

Softness and tenderness is also strength.

Gentleness and delicateness is for the strong hearted.

The qualities of the feminine that are often negated in our western world, carry a strength and power that has been forgotten.

Let's allow the fragrance of our heart to blossom open, and may this fragrance of love be the reminder of where our true wealth remains.

What I love about this picture is that I can feel my softness, gentleness, innocence, and purity shining from within. Simple feminine essence. Openness like a flower...

Love,

Nicole

The Mental Health System is a Wasteland of the Patriarchy Era

The current mental health system is a wasteland of the patriarchy era.

I found out this past week that my family member was finally released from the hospital, after exactly 3 months of being within the hospital system—and what an absolute nightmare it was.

I don’t think I will ever be able to adequately express this horrendous experience, yet I try my best to convey it with words in it’s fullest truth and actuality.

Words cannot describe how painful it was to witness this process, and to have one’s eyes awakened forcefully and brutally to the atrocities, archaic methods and absolute complete lack of understanding that exists within the current mental health system.

It really is like medieval times we are living in within certain structures of society.

During these months, of spending almost every day visiting a mental health hospital I left almost every time with tears of despair in my eyes.

Every time I entered the hospital my legs would become weak, and I felt like I was going to faint. The blood would drain out of my body slowly, and I felt the energetic field of suppression, patriarchal domination, and control.

I felt weak, just by stepping foot into the hospital—which is supposed to be a place of healing and recovery. Imagine what it does to one’s body, mind, psyche, heart and soul by having to stay in such a place for an extended time!

In all of my travels around the world to over 60+ countries, and having lived abroad in North America, Europe and Asia—I have never experienced such a low vibrational, dark, dense and completely hopeless environment than the mental health unit within the hospitals in Canada. It is a disgrace on our humanity.

It was the most depressing and bleak environment I have ever encountered. Sitting in the lounge area, with many of the people being detained against their will, and witnessing how they were being treated was like a brutal slap of reality in my face. The lowest of the low.

The questions that arised within me: Can this really be a place of healing and recovery? Is it possible that this energetic field of hopelessness, pain and depression could be even worse? How is it possible that humans that are nurses and doctors can treat and talk to other humans going through deep processes the way they do? Where is their humanity? What has happened to this world?

I can with full truthfulness say that I, as a highly energetic sensitive being, with strong subtle perceptions—would not be able to live for more then 1 day in such an environment. I would go crazy.

Rooms with fluorescent lights and no windows, food that contains absolutely no life force energy and is dead, a space with no silence and constant loud announcements on the PA, not being able to go outside and breathe fresh air, having no privacy, and being forced to be governed by the dictatorial authority of psychiatrists and doctors (although well intentioned, severely lacking awareness, compassion and empathy) is hell in it’s purest form.

And my family member, who is also a sensitive being—lived this hell for the past 3 months—a true warrior of light.

If you can survive and live in the most horrific of conditions of what our society has created, and come out with your light still intact and shining—these people deserve a medal of honour for their resilience, courage, perseverance and capacity to live the unbearable and inhumane.

Yet sadly, many don’t come out of this hospital system in good shape. It’s a place that largely perpetrates sickness, as the system itself is severely SICK.

Not only within hospitals, but the world at large. So many humans are experiencing horrific conditions right now in the world.

Soul leadership is a necessary and essential part of creating change and transformation on this Earth.

Divine Feminine Soul Leadership requires us to step into our power as heart and soul centred leaders, and lead from the revolution of our heart. To burn away our complacency, conditionings, fears, inhibitions and mental constructs—everything that binds us—to unleash and free the power of our souls on this Earth.

This experience in these months solidified the warrior of light within me. Even though I may appear to be at times a shining, angelic, graceful, light, fairy essence being—make no mistake—this is one expression and layer of my being, yet at the heart of who I am, is a powerful warrior of light, unwaveringly devoted to love, and rooted in unshakable truth.

There is a ruthless grenade of a divine protectress within me, that stands emblazoned with a sword of light in hand, wings of golden Divine light set on fire, burning in the fires of God—to bring about Divine Justice on this Earth and to abolish darkness (ignorance), and liberate souls back into their true nature of their God essence.

Everything that I stand for, embody and share—was tested like smouldering iron—through this experience that showed me the exact polarity of what I am. The complete opposite spectrum to my being and incarnation.

Everything that comes to us forges us into the beings that we are meant to be on this Earth. Never think that anything is random or accident.

Everything is divinely orchestrated in divine perfection, and as much as our human self may not be able to perceive the greater all encompassing picture in the totality of life—we must have the humility to bow our heads to life and trust the greater symphony.

We must use our most heart breaking, crucifying, and horrific experiences as alchemical gold in the fire of truth, to strengthen us instead of weaken us.

We are on this Earth to be powerful, heart centred, illuminated beings of light—to govern the dawn of the Golden Age that is upon us….and when beckoning the golden age onto this Earth, all of the final structures of domination, control, and patriarchal expressions will come up for one last battle of existence—and sometimes we will have very personal experiences within these structures.

What I can say today, that I wouldn’t have been able to say months ago is that I am grateful for this experience that life made me face. I am grateful for all the pain, gut wrenching and heart breaking turmoil that exploded like dynamite within me.

I am grateful for all the dying that happened internally, so that more of my True Nature could take up providence within. For the nonessential to be purified into the essential.

Like a grenade that goes off, it deepened my being, it opened my eyes to the world—and lit the fire within to burn ever stronger then ever before, with a heart that's been broken open even more by fierce grace.

I wish us all deep resilience and the courage to meet life authentically and powerfully.

Nicole ❤️

♦️A Lack of Humanity on this Earth at this Time—The Need for True Humans♦️

After 2 months of experiencing the depths of pain, sorrow and hell that came along with the disturbing experience in Canada of my family member, I have been left completely cracked open to life and it's many facets.

I feel sickened by the state of the world as it is right now.

I see what a barbaric world we are living in, and just how much of the dark ages we are still in. I almost can't believe what is currently happening to humans within the institutions that are in place.

Everyday crimes against humanity are taking place - because we have lost our humanity and what it really means to be human. And it's been like this for too long - which is why a change is needed now more then ever.

This is why many of us are currently here on this Earth, at this pivotal time, to implement changes and foster a new world in which we are proud to live in.

After going through the shocking experience I have already wrote about on June 27th (if you haven't read it, scroll down on my timeline) so many other things have happened since this intimate and raw sharing.

Things got even worse, and everyday for these past 2 months that I was visiting the Mental Health unit of this hospital I left with tears in my eyes, and cried.

I've felt powerless, and helpless at the hands of these deeply rooted and solid institiutions of power and authority, that are operating in the model of 'power over'. These institutions were built for the purpose of making humans feel powerless actually.

It is beyond disgusting what is taking place within the walls of these public institutions everyday (ie schools, hospitals etc), and who created these institutions that are devoid of true humanistic qualities?

▷ Why do we live in a world lacking humanistic values, if we are all human?

▷ When did we loose our humanity?

▷ When did we become robotic and like machines?

▷ How is it possible that we have strayed so far from the dignity, nobility and pride of being a true human?

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We are living in a world of programming, of programmed people, living and doing what society has taught them to do.

Many people don't even question themselves and what I observed specifically while in the hospital was that the majority of nurses, doctors and hospital management are simply cogs in the machine - doing a function, for the sake of receiving money, in order to live and survive.

They are not doing their true authentic livelihood. Many have no idea what their soul purpose is, and are completely disconnected.

As someone that supports and whose work is to help people reconnect to their true soul purpose and authentic calling, it made me sad to see how so many 'do' things everyday that are not at all rooted in their authentic being and soul. It's painful to witness this. A severe disconnection and numbness is pervading the planet.

Mature authentic livelihood, and true soul work is largely absent in this world, and is the medicine of our times...

Many are simply functioning like machines, hence, the complete devoid and lack of human qualities such as: compassion, love, courage, empathy, caring, receptivity, sensitivity, gentleness, intuition, and heart centred wisdom.

Many associate these qualities of the heart with the Divine Feminine, and this has been my Divine Mission and Calling the past 4 years. This was my sacred purpose that Life bestowed and summoned me to invoke and activate within women, and the world.

Hence, hundreds of workshops, circles, retreats and classes around the world I did like a blazing fire - with hundreds of women around the world that reclaimed a greater wholeness within themselves through this work.

This was also why my signature online global 3 month "Divine Feminine Soul Leadership Program" I do with women around the world is so powerful and life changing, and I feel the next round of this program in the fall is going to be the most powerful yet, after everything I have experienced in these months of embodied soul leadership, self mastery and sacred activism rooted in the heart of the Power of the Feminine.

I see now the necessity for the Divine Feminine qualities to be lived, embodied and reenacted within the world now more then ever (within men and women), especially after these 2 months of dropping into hell and the current systems in place.

Embodying 'feminine' qualities of the heart is not some wishy washy new age fade of being a Goddess.

It's simply a very practical and relevant aspect of being human, that has been completely forgotten by the majority of humanity for quite some time. Without the integration of the feminine within our systems, we are mechanical, cold, heartless, and weak people - that do not know the true source of our power - which comes from the heart!

As long as humanity has forgotten the qualities of the Divine Feminine and the heart, they will remain weak - by merely believing and thinking (imprisoned in the mind), while completely being cut off from their true source of power - which originates in the heart.

When humans reconnect to the heart and the 'feminine' qualities of life, they can no longer be controlled and programmed as robotic zombies playing the roles of cogs in the machine of society.

That is why it is so dangerous and powerful at the same time for us all to reconnect to our hearts, and remember the basic remembrance of what it truly means to be a human being on this Earth. To live with courage, dignity, honor and love.

To reclaim our humanity, and refuse to live as less then what we were born to be. True humans are awake in the heart - we are not machines - we are powerful human beings that are sourced from the indestructible nature and powerhouse of the heart.

True humans are wholesome beings within a fragmented world; all spectrums of our body, mind, heart and soul intact and awakened. Much less rare, then common - and so deeply needed.

...these are some of the questions, contemplation and stirrings of my soul today that I felt inspired to share with you all. If this post has resonated with you, I invite you to share, and to remind others of the power of our true humanity - and the real purpose of the Divine Feminine on this Earth.

Breathing into the Unbearable...

The last few weeks have been turbulent, riding the waves of the intensity and severity of life. Sometimes life comes in and shocks you. It throws you to your feet, and presents you with something that is unbearable and devastating—in order to annihilate you, and birth you into a newly embodied version of yourself.

I’ve taken a 3 week absence from Facebook, in order to fully be present with a traumatic event that life has presented to me and my family. My family member who is currently in the hospital in the mental health unit, was attacked and assaulted by 3 security guards one night.

The hospital did not call my family and let us know of the incident, and instead I was the one to find my family member covered in blood, unable to speak, bruised and a smashed in eye the next morning when I visited the hospital. The hospital didn’t even clean my family member up, and instead injected this person with 3 needles to be knocked out. Brutality.

On this morning I had to call 911, while being in a Canadian hospital—isn’t that absurd? The police came. It was like being in a nightmare, a horrific event that has shaken the depths of my being—and destroyed me.

When someone who is already extremely vulnerable; emotionally and psychologically fragile, who is in the hospital for mental health is attacked and beaten by security guards that are employed by the hospital—does it get any worse then this? To create even more trauma on top of trauma. This is the world we are living in. This is the state of humanity at this time on Earth.

Institutional Abuse. Human Right Violation. A sickening expression of a dysfunctional unhealthy society. Abuse of Power.

These last weeks I’ve felt Enraged. Sick. Shocked. Sad. Tender. Vulnerable. Disappointed of the world we are currently living in, and spiralling in an ocean of emotions that have been washing through me.

Sometimes I truly feel that we are living in the dark ages right now on this Earth. The future that I feel, and am rooted in, is one of an enlightened civilization. Where we are right now, is the completion of a very dark period in humanities evolution.

I really don’t even have much to say, considering that every piece of me has been annihilated through this event. The last weeks I have been dealing with hospital management, police and lawyers. What another world I have been catapulted into.

This has been a nightmarish experience—and has been the most painful, severe, disturbing, shocking and horrifying life event to date. It’s almost like something I would read about in the news, or watch on TV.

And guess what? This is happening to thousands of people around the world everyday. Many of these horrific events of institutional abuse and violence remain clocked in silence by those suppressed, vulnerable and without a real voice in society.

Often in the mental health arena, it’s easier to label someone as crazy, stripping them of their human dignity then to actually treat them with the respect, dignity and compassion they deserve.

This incident has showed me the failure of our systems to truly care and help those that its meant to serve, and the importance of justice to be honoured. It is a human right violation for those in positions of power to abuse their power and inflict violence on those under their authority.

Sometimes, we don’t fully feel the depths of insanity on this Earth until it touches us in a very intimate way. And this experience for me has been the most intimate of the intimate—because even though it didn’t directly happy to my body, heart and soul—I have felt the impact of this severely within myself, as our family is an extension of ourselves. As are we all.

I ended up going on a personal retreat to New York for a couple days, to the St. Francis Peace Centre where the sisters of St. Francis and Nuns reside. I walked the labyrinth on their retreat property, walked in the forest, and spent time on the Niagara River on the border to Canada. While in the library one day, sitting there in silence, my attention was directed to a book in the shelf with the title “All is Grace”. It spoke to me.

~ Can we find the grace in life events that appear to be horrific and the darkest of the dark?

~ Can we find the blessing within the perfection of life?

~ Can we accept the Divine Will, even when it looks very different then our personal will?

~ How deeply can we trust the higher intelligence of life?

~ How can we be a champion of truth, and bring awareness and light to the violence on this Earth?

~ How may we serve as peaceful Warriors of the light actively in society, as opposed to living a dichotomy of our spirituality being separate from what we invoke, inseminate and infuse in the world?

What I do know, is that this experience initiates me into a greater depth of awakened soul leadership, unparalleled compassion for those experiencing suffering in the world under the hands of those in power and authority, greater love, deeper trust and even more gentleness and sensitivity to every living soul I encounter.

It awakens the warrior within me, to speak up for those who don’t have voices and are being held within the walls of these institutions! To speak up for those who experience brutality, violence, abuse and denigration! To speak up for those who don’t have the freedom to speak!

I feel this experience has been a strong catalyst for grounding all this light and my divinity into the most darkest and messy nature of our human existence. Bringing the light into human life in a very grounded and practical way, with people in society that I would normally not be in relation with. The warrior of truth within me in service to love standing up for what matters, and reminding them of the qualities of human dignity, nobility, and compassion.

My prayer today is that we may live in a world that shines with the truth of Who We Are. A world where we no longer live in ignorance of our true nature, and operate in alignment with the cornerstone of love of our very being. A world where we no longer need to talk about spirituality, because we are all living the essence of truth. A world where we have reclaimed what it truly means to be human, which is living with the wisdom and intelligence of our heart on the mantle of our divinity. We cannot harm another human when we are healthy. We cannot continue to contribute to the madness on this Earth when we have peace within ourselves. May the Divinity of Justice and Compassion be resurrected for All, and may the sins of ignorance be forgiven in the Heart of the One for all of Eternity. And so it. Amen. ❤️🙏