Honouring the Calling of Soul Descent: Solitude, Silence and Stillness

There is a time in our life for creating, working, birthing, manifesting and launching—and there is a time for resting, being, incubation, withdrawing from the world and simply being still.

𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳, 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘹𝘤𝘦𝘱𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘩𝘴 𝘢𝘨𝘰—𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘺.

I did not launch any mentorship program this year, have not done 1 workshop throughout this time and facilitated no retreats.

It was an obvious and clear sign from my soul that it is time to withdraw from the world, and truly sink into the vein of stillness and silence at the very ground of my being. To pause and simply stop everything that I was doing for so long…

Has it been easy to stop and pause? Not always. Yet, when a process is ripe for the stage of transformation that are being needs, it simply happens like a ripe mango falling off the tree. No real choice or personal effort is required.

These words came to me on a plane ride from Thailand to Bali:

“𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱.

𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘯 𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘥𝘰𝘮.

𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘪𝘦—𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴, 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯. 𝘏𝘰𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘥𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘵, 𝘦𝘨𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯. 𝘈 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘥𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯, 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯, 𝘳𝘦𝘧𝘭𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯, 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨.

𝘚𝘦𝘤𝘭𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥.”

What happens when we feel and listen to this unyielding inner voice that calls for us to shift the direction and trajectory of our life from one of active doing—to deep inner descent and disintegration?

The voice of our mind and ego will kick in, and give us temptations to stay on the surface and continue to live the way we were living…even when a certain way of being and living has long expired.

Questions like: “𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴 𝘪𝘧 𝘐 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦?”, “𝘞𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘐 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨?”, “𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯’𝘵 𝘐 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘐 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘥𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴?”, “𝘐𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘬 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱?”…

These are some of the questions that have arised from my mind in this time. Yet, the power and insurmountable knowing of our soul knows that there can be no other way to live—but to truly die, disintegrate and come undone…in order for a new dimension and facet of our soul to emerge and be birthed.

It’s so easy in our society to dismiss death, darkness, gestation and disintegration—for the more shining and appealing qualities of living fully, light, brightness, launching and manifesting that shimmer in the outside world. What we can't see with our tangible eyes, is often seen as not important, valuable and disregardable.

Yet what I see is the absolute value and importance of the rich fertile darkness within each of us—that holds a true substance and deep grounded wisdom and medicine of our wholeness that shines from within this dark cocoon of the void, emptiness and nothingness.

To really allow all the identities we’ve worn to dissolve, to let go of all the achievements, to really sink back into being 'nobody'—has a certain freshness, aliveness and freedom in it. A dismantling of self, in order to merge with a greater totality of what wishes to be born and expressed through our being. It's a simple fact that in order for new growth to concur, something has to die away...to give space for the new.

So as I allow myself to be in this metaphorical death lodge that I am in, sinking into the dark womb of creation, dissolving, disintegrating, letting go of everything—I feel a real true elixir and substance of substantiality ripening within.

I feel a new medicine that I am meant to share with the world and clients in the future—which will be a completely new expression of my work and sharing in the world.

And I honor however long this process will take, whether many more weeks or months—I know I must be true to myself and honor the calling of my soul that takes me out of the world during this time, and deeply sinks me into stillness and silence—that is found at the very deep well at the core of our being. 𝘐𝘵’𝘴 𝘢 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴…𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘎𝘰𝘥.

No more doing. Pushing. Striving. Becoming. Not playing into the game and sickness of the never ending hamster wheel of “more and more…”. No action out of obligation, social pressure to fit in and appease conformity.

Just a very silent and deep knowing that this is exactly as its meant to be. And to be fiercely true to that resolutely.

May we all be true to ourselves, and have the tenacity and courage to truly listen to want needs to happen in our life and within ourselves, and be willing to commit our full heart to both the living and dying, the doing and being, time in the summer of our life and an equal honouring of the season of winter….

From this lake I sit, silent and still, rooted on this earth and within myself—trusting and knowing that the evolution of our soul’s trajectory has a grace and intelligence to itself, and the magnitude of our soul’s expression and ripening must be met by the sinking down deeply into the rich fertility of the silent core within ourselves that all of life is sourced from.

To come back home to God within ourselves, and be renewed with a new sacred vision and calling—that is here to serve what is truly essential and needed on this Earth at this time…I am here in this liminal space listening...echoing in the heart of true silence.

Love, Nicole ❤️

The Wisdom and Fierce Calling of the Crone and Ancient Cailleach of Scotland

When I am here in the northern Scotland Highlands where I am now, the land awakens a fierce medicine of the ancient feminine within my being. 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘚𝘤𝘰𝘵𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘷𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘥, 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘥, 𝘳𝘢𝘸, 𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘶𝘯𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨.

I feel how the land holds the myths and mythology of the ancient Goddess and especially the Cailleach—who is a divine Hag, Crone, Old wise woman essence.

I feel her living and breathing within myself. I feel this ancient hag and crone mesmerized from within; who looks out onto the world with bleak eyes.

She sees the current state of humanity and the planet, and ruthlessly penetrates through all the gloss, illusions and surface ways of living into the heart of truth.

She slams the intensity of realness and deep, silent presence into the fragmented, incoherent and distorted world we live in—full of lies, artificiality and glossy entertainment.

She yearns for the real….true…deep.

She’s tired of seeing women on this earth being seduced out of their power and true spiritual authority that comes from being connected to the land and the wisdom of the Earth.

She’s tired of women being sexually objectified in our modern day society—and of seeing how women themselves sexually objectify themselves in order to get attention and feel desired out of insecurity.

Sometimes I see photos on social media of women wearing push up bra’s and showing off their cleavage and I ask myself why does this woman wish to reveal the sanctitude of her body for the desire of more allurement, attention and attraction?

Women themselves in our modern day society choose to prostitute themselves for attention and publicity. They have forgotten the honour, nobility and dignity of being a woman.

Have women forgot where their true fierce power comes from? If women truly knew the degree of where their real power comes from, they wouldn’t be able to dishonour themselves and play this game of conforming to a superficial culture and society in which simply glorify’s youth, beauty and sexual allurement.

Where are the fiercely awake, bold, brave, women of this earth? The truth is that she lives within us all, and is often buried deep within the bottom of our essence…deep at the bottom of the lake within our being where the light doesn’t shine and is held in holy darkness. Primordial Power. Absolute silence—a silence that speaks from power.

The truth is that we need women with a voice on this earth—and we need loud, powerful voices of truth to shatter the hypocrisy of this age. Beauty, youth and exposing cleavage will not do justice.

This ancient Cailleach is screaming to us all to wake up. She’s fed up. She’s had enough of the bullshit on this earth. Enough of the destruction, rape and violation of the Great Mother. Enough of the feminine being denigrated within our societies, and enough of the glossy pretty beauty facade that is hooked within young girls psyches from adolescents.

Shifting the locus of our attention from “How do I look? + "Am I desirable and attractive to men" to “How do I feel / what really breaks my heart / what is my unique contribution and soul gift to offer to the Wholeness of this planet?”.

We need to uproot ourselves from the superficial, vain and objectification of our physical bodies as women—and sink back deeply into the holy ground of wisdom within—where true power is derived—and when we speak, we speak not from the mental mind, but from the power, conviction and voice of the Earth herself.

* 𝘐𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘐 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘵 - 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘥𝘰𝘮 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘭 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 - 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘔𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘌𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘩.

Love from the land of Scotland...

Nicole ❤️

𝘚𝘱𝘪𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘡𝘦𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘞𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯—𝘚𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴, 𝘈𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴, 𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦 & 𝘚𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘋𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘪𝘱𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦

During these last weeks I have been in Japan, it’s been like a river of fresh water for my soul.

After spending 6 months living in Bali this past winter—and being immersed in strong dynamic shakti energy that the island holds and radiates, at the end of my time there I started to feel that my being needed to go in a different direction. It was time to drink from another source.

It was time to reconnect to a lineage of spirituality that held the qualities of precision, deliberate intention, awareness, spaciousness, contemplation, presence, exactness, discipline, refinement and self mastery.

This spark was ignited actually on the last day I was in Thailand before going back to Bali in the spring, when I had my first Ice Bath by the ocean. Something in my being woke up from the intensity of the cold and facing the uncomfortable. Something in me remembered the value of being with discomfort, and challenging myself to go beyond what feels comfortable and pleasurable.

After being in Bali which is an island saturated with the tone of self love, beauty, nourishment, pleasure, feminine flow, and strong dynamic creative energy; I realized that an aspect of my being needed a different quality and expression to grow and mature—something that Bali wasn’t able to give.

I felt the stirring within my soul to confront myself with discomfort—to honor the essential value of feeling discomfort and moving through it in order to grow, mature and ripen.

We don’t always grow when things are easy, and just like a butterfly in a cocoon, it has to use it’s force and energy to struggle to open its wings and leave the cocoon…strength and power is cultivated when it is tested, and has to go through some resistance to strengthen it’s refinement.

It’s not always about feeling good and comfortable, and I see the value and beauty in inviting in discomfort, which is where true transformation and growth happens. Resilience of spirit does not grow in ease and peace, it grows through moving through adversity and deepening our fortitude.

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Upon arriving in Japan, I realized that Japan couldn’t be more different than Bali energetically. I would say it’s the exact contrast and polarity to Bali in every way. Here in Japan, there is a strong ancient silence, peacefulness and stillness that permeates the island and culture…its a place of deep resting and ground of being.

Bali in contrast is dynamic, always changing, moving, fluid, catapulting energy of ever-changing jungle life filled with movement, sounds, and colours.

Japan is still, silent, peaceful. If I were to compare it to a picture, Bali would be the painting on the canvas (ie the feminine expression) whereas Japan would be the structure and frame that holds the painting together (ie the masculine expression). The structure that holds the shakti and dynamic expression.

Japanese culture and way of life is largely permeated with influences from Zen. The qualities of spaciousness, silence, simplicity, cleanliness, precision and exactness are strongly interwoven throughout Japanese culture and way of life.

Yet, it’s also one of the only places on this earth where I feel I can truly be in my feminine essence and expression, as the sacred feminine is honoured and respected here in this culture. The qualities of the feminine are honored and not denigrated as they are in western culture. For me, it’s one of the only counties in the world where I feel I can truly blossom and shine fully in my womanhood.

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After living in the field of Ubud that holds the essence of a strong second chakra energy and expression connected to ecstatic dance, flow, movement, colours, vibrancy, pleasure and sensual aliveness—I really could see that just being saturated in this kind of field can only bring one so far on their path of spiritual development and maturation.

And it’s also easy to fall a sleep in this kind of setting, where one needs a very strong vigilance and torch of awareness to be burning from within.

Through having many encounters with people in Ubud, I also started to see certain patterns. Many people I met while in Ubud were strongly connected to shakti energy, divine feminine movement and expression—dancing, womb awakening, ecstatic dance, sensual embodiment etc were mainly operating from this second chakra dimension of life, and not fully inhabiting the fullness and totality of the integrated dimensions of all parts of our being.

I could see how many were operating solely from their “feelings”, connecting to their “flow”, and were deeply focused on self love and pleasure—yet were not fully confronting themselves in the light of truth, wakefulness and presence. Many subconscious and unconsciousness currents operating, and the quality of the awakened 6th chakra of divine perception, clarity, wisdom, discrimination and being rooted in truth and being able to discriminate falsity from truth within themselves was not fully active.

I started to see an essential component of spiritual maturity and embodiment that was really needed for women on the path of embodying their feminine expression and essence, that is integrated with a healthy union with one’s inner Shiva presence of spaciousness, awareness and penetrating light and clarity. An integration and wholeness.

I see and feel the vital importance for women on their path to truly live the fullness and totality of their being, which is not limited to one expression, but is able to contain the multidimensional expressions of life that we came here to be. To meet our totality wholeheartedly, and live from all 7 dimensions of our being cultivated, activated and enlivened.

To become integrated, whole, mature beings that are here on this Earth to ground the light in the radiance of our feminine expression (when being incarnate in a women’s body for example), and at the same time to be rooted in truth and absolute presence uncompromisingly.

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I feel that my path is to be a bridge of this embodiment. The feminine radiance, overflowing love, Shakti, expression and flow—united and married to a very strong and clear stillness, silence, presence, clarity and wakefulness of consciousness.

For my own path of self mastery that I am committed to while being incarnate in a woman’s body, it feels very essential for my own path to cultivate the qualities of self discipline, focus, self control, inner presence, and essential strength and power. Qualities that I see embodied in Shaolin monks for example, that radiate this centred presence and mastery.

There is the wild shakti, scintillating dancing light and free flowing feminine nature and Goddess within me—and there is also a very strong disciplined Warrior Monk that lives inside me. Japan is a place that nourishes my inner zen monk and essence…and roots me deeply into the ground of being.

Love, Nicole ❤️

Fierce Reflections of Feminine Divinity—Dakini Embodiments of Enlightened Feminine Consciousness ▽

“The dakinis offer a feminine model that is fierce, wise, spiritual and embodied. They give us the energy of the undomesticated feminine; they are not meek or submissive. They are luminous, subtle spiritual energy, the gatekeepers and guardians of the unconditioned wisdom and sacred earth.” - Lama Tsultrim Allione

Many years ago on my journey I came across a book by Lama Tsultrim Allione called Women of Wisdom. At the time, I was in my early 20s and I remember skimming through the book without actually reading through it in its entirety. It simply remained in my book shelf, and what it did introduce me to for the first time was the principle of the Dakini. A few years later I was drawn to another booked called Dakini Power in my mid 20s—which I did read fully.

A couple weeks ago I felt a strong guidance and calling to read the book Wisdom Rising: Journey into the Mandala of the Empowered Feminine. Reading this book now at this juncture on my path, truly crystallized the energy, form and embodiment that I carry within my own being—and find working through me very often in my work with people. After reading this book, I felt the inspiration to write an article on this topic of the empowered feminine, and my wish is that this piece of writing may serve as a catalyst for women around the world to reconnect to the true power of fierce feminine energy and expression. May this article give you the permission to be fierce, true, and resolutely clear.

“The dakini is a messenger of emptiness and also appears in dreams to guide the meditator, and she might appear in real life as a woman with certain wisdom qualities. The dakini is a force of truth….wherever we cling, she cuts; whatever we think we can hide, she reveals.”

This quality of being “a force of truth” is something that I feel strongly moving within me, and is an aspect of my essential nature. Being a force of truth is not passive and complacent, its an active and strong expression. Often we are taught to believe that ‘force’ is negative and is ‘not good’—and consequently, many women do not allow themselves the permission to use force or to be a force. “If in someway we are stuck, the dakini will appear and open the way, push us through; sometimes the energy needs to be forceful, and that’s when the wrathful manifestation of a dakini appears.”

When I learned that dakini’s use the energy of force to serve a greater good and outcome, it allowed a silent inner knowing within myself to relax and open even more into this embodiment and expression. The permission to know that force is sometimes needed, and is healthy when serving a greater good and outcome that requires this dynamic active energy. So many times we are taught as young girls to be meek, complacent, subservient, and that femininity is equated with being gentle, patient, loving and accepting. Yet, that is only one side of the coin when connecting to the totality of our being. The yin and yang nature of feminine wholeness.

For centuries women have been programmed, conditioned and taught to be an artificial construct of what it means to be a woman—which is devoid of true power—which was not welcomed by those in positions of authority for thousands of years. Women have been encouraged to be meek, docile, passive and submissive—and not encouraged to be strong, powerful, and in tune with a women’s true creational active energy; the liberated undomesticated feminine energy.

“The idea of an enlightened, sacred feminine energy that was also naked, dancing, and fierce was something I had never experienced, and it touched me deeply. Dakinis embody and activate the powerful and transformative energy of the feminine. When you think about it, we really don’t have that kind of image of spiritual enlightenment in our world. We have a figure like the Holy Virgin Mother, who is peaceful and nonthreatening, but we don’t have many reflections of female divinity that are active, dancing, fierce, free and wild. So by activating the dakini power within us, we will have an inner resource that should never be underestimated. What we’re really doing is taking a part of the psyche that’s been relegated to the unconscious, the fierce, powerful feminine who has become repressed, and we are bringing that energy forward and exploring that energy’s potential for enlightenment.”

On my own path, I have had a fierce longing in my heart to connect to spiritual embodiments of enlightened feminine energy, expression and consciousness.

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Within the mainstream field of spirituality, it’s very rare that I meet and encounter this vein of true, deep, rich and pure enlightened feminine embodiment, consciousness and expression.

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Especially within the Divine Feminine movement, there is still many plastic, contrived and fake dazzling allurements of feminine embodiment, yet many I find that lack true substance, depth, wisdom and richness. Many women think that by calling themselves a Goddess and wearing sexy alluring clothes that this means they are a “Goddess” or “Priestess”—yet what I miss the most is meeting true empowered feminine wisdom embodiment’s that shines the light of primordial consciousness through their being. This has nothing to do with one’s physicality, and is rather a dimension of our being that is often sleeping. In a market that is saturated with glossy ideals and images of empowered femininity, I long for true substance of spirit—the potency and liberating quality and edge of enlightened feminine consciousness.

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When I came across the world of the dakini’s, I was awakened to the illumination of an empowered feminine embodiment that is active and fierce, and not just passive, surrendering, gentle and soft.

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This quality of an active energy and expression has always been natural to me, and for a long time on my journey I had labelled it as a strong “inner masculine” integration that I had of being able to be driven, single pointed, resolute, and penetrating with how I direct my energy. 

After working with hundreds of women around the world, and being a teacher and mentor for women to embody and awaken their full feminine power—I have come up against the greatest repressors of feminine power that exist within the human psyche that keep women playing small. I have seen the mechanisms within the collective feminine psyche that hold women back from being fully unleashed and embodying a pure undomesticated feminine power. There are many deeply ingrained conditionings that are embedded within women’s psyches from such a young age—and especially this “nice girl” conditioning that is a plastic box that severely limits a women’s true potential, power and expression.

One of the biggest inhibitors of women awakening to their power and simply realizing it, is all the mental beliefs and ideas we have been taught about what it means to be a woman that accumulates in our heads. As opposed to fully being connected to this powerful unleashed energy that lives within us all, we block this power by being caged in our mental ideas and thoughts around what is “nice”, “good”, and “acceptable”. This is how we severely dilute the fullness that we are.

“Fierce compassion is not limited to women; in fact, the Dalai Lama is a good example of it. I was once at a lunch with the Dalai Lama and five other western Buddhist teachers at Spirit Rock Meditation Centre in Marin Country, California. We were discussing sexual misconduct among western Buddhist teachers. A woman Buddhist from California brought up someone who was using his students for his own sexual needs. 

One woman said, “we are working with him with compassion, trying to get him to understand his motives for exploiting female students and to help him change his actions.” The Dalai Lama slammed his fist on the table, saying loudly, “Compassion is fine, but it has to stop! And those doing it should be exposed!”

All the serving plates on the table jumped, the water glasses tipped, and I almost choked on the rice in my mouth. Suddenly I saw him as a fierce manifestation of compassion and realized that this clarity did not mean that the Dalai Lama had moved away from compassion. Rather, he was bringing compassion and manifesting it as decisive fierceness. His magnetism was glowing like a fire. I will always remember that day, because it was such a good teaching on compassion and precision. Compassion is not a wishy-washy ‘anything goes’ approach. Compassion can say a fierce no! Compassion is not being stupid and indulging someone and what they want.”

This example of the Dalai Lama really struck a cord in me. I often see in spirituality this hazy, wish-washy, complacent energy that is masked as “acceptance and compassion” but is truly missing the back bone of strength, precision, clarity and decisive knowing that cuts through the fog into the heart of what truly matters. What I see in many women is that women have a fear of being fully in their clarity, because embodying clarity is an expression of power. It’s much more safer to play small and be stuck in confusion where “I don’t know” is the predominant expression, than to be bold and fierce, and speak with conviction. 

The dakini is existing within us all, and by embodying this fierce energy we allow ourselves to merge with an awakened feminine consciousness. Its an aspect of awakened feminine consciousness that we can connect to, merge with and embody.

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“In the Tibetan tradition, fierceness or wrathfulness represents a powerful energy. Wrath is the fastest-moving energy we manifest as human beings, and the fierce or wrathful deities you see in Tibetan art represent the energy that burns away limitations and ignorance. Fierce energy can be thought of as the way a mother animal defends her young, a laser beam of pure energy that hone harnessed and directed is powerful and unstoppable. It is fierceness without aggression, anger, or hatred. Sometimes a wrathful manifestation is more effective than a peaceful approach.”

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I have found in the work I do with women around the world, that most often when working 1 on 1 with clients in my mentorship programs that fierce energy and expression is often more effective than a peaceful and gentle approach. Fierce energy cuts through the delusions, entanglements, emotional blockages and mental beliefs like a sword of light. It penetrates and liberates. Especially when I see fear holding back a woman from fully being free, this fierce energy is what cuts through the fear and bondage, and allows her own energy to expand and no longer be constrained by what was holding her back in the past and blocking her from her full freedom. 

I once was working on a friend of mine outside a lake in Berlin, Germany. He was laying on the ground as I worked on his energetic structure and was transmitting a lot of light into his subtle system. I then was guided to speak to him fiercely with an energy that was meant to shake him and wake him up from the slumber of fear that has been dominating and controlling his life for a very long time. When I first started to speak with this fierce energy that was like a blazing fire burning through my words, not nice nor calm, I questioned whether it was ok for me to speak to him in this manner. My human structure kicked in, and was subtlety feeling a hesitation to channel this power and energy that was coming through very strongly vocally. Then I changed back to speaking calmly and peacefully, and he opened his eyes suddenly and looked at me and said, “Nicole, don’t hold back. I need to hear these words with this intensity. Yell at me, this is the energy that frees me and liberates something in me the most.”

It was only when I spoke with this fierce resolute energy that it could penetrate his structures and unchain the deepest bondgage in his psyche and consciousness. He appreciated me speaking with him in ferocity, and encouraged me to even yell at him to break and dissolve the demons within. I will never forget this day by the lake, and how I saw very clearly that this energy I am, and can transmit, served his soul’s liberation even more strongly than me being soft and gentle. It showed me the fierce grace of feminine power, and the wrathful manifestation of awakened feminine consciousness that penetrates through the folly and delusions of our human mind. 

“We must find the sources to access this fierce dakini power and bring it to bear on what matters to us in our lives, be it emotional, spiritual, intellectual, or political. Meeting our strong feminine energy, we will develop as women, and not as women trying to be like men or asexual beings. We are different, and until that difference is known, owned, and maximized, our true feminine potency and capacity to bring this world into balance will not be realized. The powerful, fierce feminine is very much a part of the psyche, but it is repressed; and when it is not acknowledged because it is threatening, it can become subversive and vengeful. But when it is acknowledged and honoured, it’s an incredible source of power. “

“A dakini is an embodiment of the sacred feminine, a dakini is an enlightened female wisdom being who could appear as a human being or a meditational deity, an embodiment of wisdom, or as a protector of the lineage. In Tibetan the word for Dakini is Khandro, literally meaning “sky dancer,” “she who moves through space”. The wisdom dakinis are fully buddha’s in Tibetan Buddhism. Khandro Rinpoche defines the authentic dakini principle as “a very sharp, brilliant wisdom mind that is uncompromising, honest, with a little bit of wrath".”

I hope that this article on Fierce Reflections of Feminine Divinity—Dakini Embodiments of Enlightened Feminine Consciousness may serve your path, and be a reminder and awakener to a powerful force of light and consciousness that is available to us all—both women and men. It’s not the typical masculine enlightenment expression and embodiment of being even toned, neutral, silent, tranquil and peaceful like a Buddha—it’s the holy fire of enlightened feminine consciousness that is burning, dynamic, cutting, piercing and powerful in its expression to catalyze change and transformation within. It’s potency and movement. It’s the active manifest form of Shakti, and it’s a powerful reminder of a fierce feminine grace that we can merge with when we empty ourselves of the small self, and open our beings to being living embodiments of enlightened feminine consciousness—in service to love, liberation, and the unleashing of our extraordinary potential within us all.

If you resonated with this article and wish to read further writings of mine, I just recently published and released my first book entitled “Soul on Fire: Divine Reminders on the Path of Awakening”. It’s a Soul Luxe Gift Book, that is textbook size containing 412 pages. Click here to learn more about it. And please be free to share this article with any sisters and women in your life that you feel could benefit from receiving the wisdom within this article.

Questions of Inquiry and Contemplation:

• What does the essence of the Dakini speak to in you?

• How can you cultivate a deeper relationship with the fierce feminine?

• What mental belief or concept holds you back from unleashing the full force and potency of the undomesticated feminine within yourself?

• What inhibits you from being fully free in your embodiment, expression and totality?

• Where in your own life does acceptance and compassion need to be integrated with decisive fierceness — precision of the heart as the Dalai Lama embodied?

• Is there a situation in your life that is calling for the fierce manifestation of compassion?

• How can you honor the uncompromising, honest and fierce expression existing within your being, and allow her the privilege of coming out into expression?

• Do you hold the mental belief or judgement within yourself that being peaceful and gentle is always more loving, and that being fierce and penetrating is not as “loving” or “kind”?

• Do you feel a yearning within yourself to deepen in enlightened feminine consciousness and embody the totality of your being? Are you ready to throw off the straitjacket of “conditioned femininity” and break open the chalice of wisdom and Divine consciousness within?

Unshakable Commitment to our Soul’s Truth.

So much richness to life. I feel this deep richness, that comes from living in the kingdom of my soul’s wholeness. When we truly live in congruence with our innermost being, a flowering and blossoming can occur, where what we create and share on the outside is a direct reflection of the unshakable truth in which we live, breathe and burn on the inside.

We celebrated the completion, launch, and release of a really special treasure that was created through me with some dear friends this past week. It’s only been 1.5 week since sharing 𝘚𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘰𝘯 𝘍𝘪𝘳𝘦: 𝘋𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘙𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘗𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘈𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 with the world, and already over half the books I had printed are sold!

I am awe inspired and amazed, of the ways that some people found this gift book for the soul—and the impact it’s been having already on so many people’s lives.

I am really taking my time to slow down now and relish this soul success—and it’s a soul success to me because I did not falter, nor shake in diluting the essence of this creation even when I was tested again and again…when the company I was going to publish with told me that I should cut my book into 2 or 3 books and sell them separately because it was more ‘marketable’, I felt deep pain in my heart.

I knew I couldn’t compromise on this vision and power of this book, and committed with my Inner Durga to be steadfast and true to the calling burning in my soul…

Now I see the power that comes with being unshakable in our commitment to our soul’s truth. Now I realize the potency and shakti of a creation that comes from beyond one’s self—that is interwoven with the evolution of consciousness and expansion of our God essence as powerful divine creators that we all are.

I have touched a deep vein within my innermost being that is sourced from the wholeness that we all are, and this book is an expression, sacred testament, and invocation for the deeper truth within us all to be remembered and lived.

𝘉𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.

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𝘉𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘶𝘵𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘪𝘦𝘳𝘤𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘮𝘪𝘵𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭’𝘴 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩.
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𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘦𝘹𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘦𝘥.

𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶.

…and if you wish to join the Live group Zoom call with me and other sister’s and women around the world, it will be happening this Sunday April 21st globally and will be recorded. It’s for all the women who have joined the 𝗗𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗲 𝗙𝗲𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗲 𝗦𝗼𝘂𝗹 𝗙𝗶𝗿𝗲 𝗜𝗺𝗺𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻. It’s the package that includes the book as well as video content of tremendous value rooted in teachings and wisdom on the path of awakening and flourishing in our soul's leadership, sovereignty, and embodiment.

In silence and love,

Nicole

The Special Moment of Seeing my Book for the First Time

Capturing a very special moment...seeing my books for the very first time...I started to cry, as I was moved to tears. ❤️

This is a powerful soul activation tool and catalyst that is energetically designed to spark and enliven the embers of your own heart to remember the truth of why you came to this Earth, and what your purpose is, while connected to the illuminated wisdom of the Higher Self.

The soul of this 'being' / 'creation' came to me 5 years ago, and I felt the energy of what wanted to be expressed and created on this earth for souls at this time in humanity's evolution. I was told that this project and creation that I was giving birth to would awaken, transform and be a strong life changing catalyst for souls that are here to lead from their heart and awaken out of the shackles and slavery of fear based consciousness, lack, limitation and darkness.

The essence of this creation distilled is a Soul Activation, Guiding light and Awakening ignition to unleash the Divine Consciousness within us all. It helps us move out of our programs, conditionings and limited beliefs, into the unlimited infinite golden potential that is waiting to burst through all of us. It's a golden key to your awakened heart, embodied power and inner knowing.

By the way these were the soft cover versions, and I decided to print them in hard cover after this and slightly larger size so that it's like a coffee table - soul luxe - gift book.

Now it's much more elegant, and is a real work of art. That's why I can't even call it a book, when its a true piece of art and a divine gift. I have never seen a book like this created on this Earth to this date. It hasn't existed before, and I downloaded it from the future.

It's a visual transmission of wisdom, codes, and activations contained throughout the photos and writings. It speaks through pictures and words, through energy, almost like a modern day oracle book, where you can open it anywhere and receive a message for that moment. It is filled with divine reminders that guide you back to your True Self.

There is currently a special launching price now available on my website for the Soul on Fire Immersion which is a multimedia digital experience that goes together with the book, and a special offer on the book itself. Maybe you feel inspired to gift yourself a present?

Celebrating a Milestone in my Life—Soul on Fire Release

My first published book 𝘚𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘰𝘯 𝘍𝘪𝘳𝘦: 𝘋𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘙𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘗𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘈𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 is now available to be ordered on my website. This book is a sacred jewel of inspiration for any woman looking to deepen into her humanity—and her divinity.

Over the last 5 years, I’ve been creating and birthing this special gift for my sisters around the world (it's also for men, as the soul is beyond gender ^.^). This project reflects my sacred work with women, that has been deeply touched by the essence of my global travels and journey to over 60+ countries.

𝘚𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘰𝘯 𝘍𝘪𝘳𝘦 contains transmissions and evolutionary adventures from my own journey, plus self-portraits captured during my travels around the world. My vision is by reading this book, you’ll receive an activation into your deepest truth and soul’s knowing.

Whether you receive the words and images in this book as a meditation, or simply as sparkling soul musings, Soul On Fire will awaken, ignite and strengthen your remembrance and connection with the Divine in your own life.

𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘭𝘶𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯, 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘺𝘴𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘵. 𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥. 𝘞𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘬, 𝘕𝘪𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘏𝘦𝘮𝘮𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘶𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘚𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘖𝘯 𝘍𝘪𝘳𝘦: 𝘋𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘙𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘗𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘈𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦, 𝘢 𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘶𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘦𝘴. 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘶𝘤𝘪𝘥, 𝘸𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘥𝘪𝘢𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘭𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘪𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘮𝘱𝘵𝘶𝘰𝘶𝘴, 𝘮𝘶𝘭𝘵𝘪-𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭’𝘴 𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵. 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘦𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘯. 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯. 𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘕𝘪𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘶𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘔𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩, 𝘪𝘨𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦. - Sarah Drew, Author of Gaia Codex: A Novel and Ancient Wisdom Text Revealed

To say that I put my entire heart and soul into this living breathing book of light and transmission of awakened consciousness—would be an understatement.

My entire being was stretched to maximum capacity and forged in the fires of the creation process of translating the soul and vision of this book from the formless into the form.

The living fabric of the soul of this book is pure beauty, elegance, refreshing simplicity, divine wisdom, soul activation, along with whispers of truth that kindle and enliven your spirit to rise into its fullest remembrance of your Infinite Nature and Essential Light.

𝘐𝘯 𝘢 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘢𝘳, 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘧𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘴, 𝘕𝘪𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘶𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘤. 𝘏𝘦𝘳 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵’𝘴 𝘶𝘯𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨. 𝘚𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘰𝘯 𝘍𝘪𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘪𝘣𝘦. 𝘚𝘰𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘴, 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘴, 𝘢𝘣𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘣𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘤 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘺𝘦𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘶𝘯𝘷𝘦𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴...𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘫𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 5𝘋 𝘣𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭. 𝘈 𝘱𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩. 𝘐 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳, 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘠𝘖𝘜𝘙 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘺 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘩𝘺𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮. - Krystal Brandt, Creator of Courage of Ease TV, Mentor & Founder of the Courage of Ease Movement

Thank you all for witnessing my journey, and celebrating and supporting me with this birthing and launching of this most special creation—a real soul treasure that has now been released into the world, that is ready to go into the hands, hearts and homes of those who its meant for...

I feel really grateful that I can now offer all my sisters and women around the world something substantial in a tangible physical form—that holds tremendous value. ❤️

And if I one day leave this planet, at least I will be able to do so in peace knowing that I have left behind a legacy of light that truly has the power to change, transform, awaken, and ignite souls.

I invite you to check out my website for further information on how you can order it and the different packages available.

Give yourself this gift that will stay with you for the rest of your life—as a guiding light—on the path of awakened living, soulful beauty, radiating truth, illuminated wisdom, consciousness and a new pathway of contemporary feminine spirituality that is here from the future for us all.

I am burning...

Nicole 🔥

A Letter from my Soul from Sumbawa

This is my first post in over a month, and perhaps you’ve been wondering where I have been during this time?

I am right now on the remote Indonesian island of Sumbawa, and its 3:00am in the morning and I am sitting outside under the stars hearing the waves of the ocean meeting the beach that is a few minutes from my room.

During the last months, I’ve been feeling a strong silent pull to disconnect from social media and give myself a personal retreat of solitude, seclusion and isolation from the world at large.

Today we flew from Bali to Lombok and then took a fast boat to this ancient island full of spirit, wilderness and untouched pristine beauty.

Jonas and I are here to check out a project that is happening, that we felt strongly called to see the project in person and meet the people from around the world that are fostering this vision and manifesting it into form.

In these last weeks, my soul has needed a space of solitude and withdrawal, in order to attune myself deeper to a new path that is opening and emerging; and a season of transition that is ripe within my being.

I was hearing this calling for some time, yet stayed active in posting and sharing my life with you all. Then last month when I had this divine intervention of experiencing my first ice bath by the ocean in Thailand, under extraordinary circumstances (see my post I shared with the ice bath video for more details on the event)—something woke up strongly within me.

I no longer could ignore this urgent need and yearning to withdrawal into my metaphorical cave of modern day seclusion, and realized that in my own life I don’t need to attend a meditation retreat to withdrawal from the world (or travel anywhere for that matter!), but I simply need to get off the computer and disconnect from all social media interactions in order to give my innermost being the introspection and deepening in essential wisdom it was thirsting and longing for.

And I did just that—for the last 4 weeks exactly.

As many of you already know, I have been getting ready to publish my first book which is entitled, “Soul on Fire: Divine Reminders on the Path of Awakening”. I had originally planned to release it at the end of December, yet had some delays and last minute changes that needed to be implemented in order to stay true to the soul and vision of this book.

In worldly terms, that meant choosing to get it printed by a high quality printing company in Europe, as opposed to it being printed generically and cheaply in the USA.

Choosing to have the book in hard cover, and not soft cover—in order to stay true to the original vision and essence of the soul of this living breathing work of art. It’s a - SOUL LUXE - gift book for the soul for women (and also men) that is living transmission of light, 412 pages of full colour, infused with golden emblems and sacred geometry, sacred writings, prayers, invocation, articles, photos, and every piece included in the book is crafted with intention, presence and concentrated awareness.

And lastly, choosing to self publish my book instead of publishing with the company I was originally intending to because of a lack of resonance, alignment and energetic dissonance that I was experiencing.

It has been a major initiation and learning to stay true to myself, not compromise and allow the grace and intelligence of life to lead and guide the way....and most importantly, to get my personal will out of the way.

This is why there has been a slight delay with releasing my book, because I had to to do some modifications and refinements, and now I am excited to share with you all that the books have been printed, and a big box of 200 kilos just arrived yesterday in Germany from England! To start out, I've printed a limited edition set of books, of only 50, as each book weighs around 3 kilos and its a special limited edition for those soul's its meant for—and probably you if you are reading this now....you'll know in your heart.

Next week, I will officially launch it into the world and it will be available to be ordered. You have no idea how happy it makes me to be able to say that now with complete unshakeable confidence, with having the books physically printed and ready to be shipped out globally to all my soul sisters, friends, clients, and family around the world. ❤️

Right now as I write this post today, I can feel that I am writing from silence. These words that are appearing on the page are coming from presence, spaciousness and silence of my own being.

The world at large is fast, quick, attention seeking, loud and obnoxious most of the time—and I resolutely choose to be what I am, and not be influenced by how the mainstream society operates—to be committed to depth, truth, essential wisdom, presence, and true rich soul nourishment for every fibre of our being.

There is a resting in my words, and I sincerely hope that my sharing today may be a source of richness for your own path, in whatever way it may spark or kindle a deeper knowing within yourself.

Whether its to be true to yourself fiercely, along with really listening to the soul of your creations and embodied creativity; or simply refusing to confirm to the loud attention seeking energy that much of Facebook is populated by—my wish from my heart to you is that you allow yourself space and presence to breath, slow down, return to the throne of your soul’s immaculate essence and give yourself the permission to stop.

...For a few seconds, hours, days or weeks or as long as you need to return to the deep inner substance in which you are sourced from.

Our power comes from within, and comes from the unbridled knowing of our soul’s ancient inner voice. And like a sacred temple, it requires our silence to truly communion with the holy presence of knowing within each of our hearts. 🙏🏻

With a deep open heart, I send my love to you all into your day whenever it is you receive this message.

Thank you for taking the time as always to read my sharing. I love and appreciate you all 💜

Your friend and soul star sister,

Nicole ✨✨

- ICE BATH - Experience by the Ocean in Thailand

It happened under extraordinary circumstances, and Divine Grace. Walking on the street going home after returning our scooter rental, I had the inspiration and impulse to stop a jeep that was driving by us and ask if we could get a ride....

Normally, I never 'hitch hike', but today in the extreme heat I followed my calling and it led me to meet a very kind and warm hearted Japanese man that enthusiastically picked us up, and in the car ride home he told us that he made an ice bath at his villa and asked us if we wanted to go in. He's a big fan of the Wim Hof method, since it transformed his life.

I had imagined that he made an ice bath in his bathtub inside his villa, and never could have anticipated this ice bath pool he created right by the ocean!

This experience was a miracle! I haven't experienced such Divine Grace like this in a long time. One moment we are walking home on the hot sunny street about to leave this island, and the next moment we are being taken to a freshly prepared ice bath by the ocean...

------> All because I followed my inspiration and had the courage and capacity to simply ask a stranger for a ride. To not allow fear to stop and control me, but to stay rooted in the freshness of that moment and be attuned to a higher calling and possibility of life that was available in that moment when I could attune, feel and act.

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How many times do we block Divine Grace simply because we allow ourselves to stay limited, blocked and confined by the fears operating in our system. The voices in our mind that hold us back...

Many people listen to their mental mind, and don't have the courage to truly take inspired action from their heart and attune themselves to the higher calling and higher will. You cannot attune yourself to a higher cosmic intelligence if you are enslaved by fear and the conditioned mind.

We need to come back to our self mastery as humans, and be the masters of our inner being. To confront the fears, and move beyond them.

Its so important to be connected to our Higher Self and have the subtle awareness and competency to align and act in accordance with the Divine will - and not just be limited to our human operating system.

Thank you God. Thank you Life. Thank you Infinite Creation for your blessing, benediction, and Infinite Guidance and Protection. Thank you for taking care of us all, and always leading us on our way. 🙏❤️

Japanese Zen Jungle Living - My Home

The last 3 months I have been living in this beautiful Japanese Zen house in the jungle—directly immersed in nature—next to a small waterfall, flowing river, and bamboo grove.

These months have been deeply grounding and it’s been a strong ‘root chakra’ house which has strengthened my roots into the core of the earth.

My soul has been calling for a descent, to honor the season of winter in my life and within; therefore this house and space has been a cave of incubation, deepening, and sinking deeper into Mother Earth.

I wanted a cave, a dark house to retreat to amidst these sunny and hot winter days here in Bali. I've yearned for the darkness of winter, and created that in this space...

Staying rooted for these months and not travelling was also very new for me, and it brought up a lot within to see the areas of resistance to settle, and it also allowed me the space to see deeper into my first few chakra’s and feel the emotional and energetic charges within these chakras that I wasn’t able to as deeply penetrate into while moving around a lot and travelling in these last few years.

To really go into these first 3 chakras and bring the light of awareness into the crevices that can only be accessed when one is rooted, still, and able and willing to bring greater presence and consciousness into these parts of ourselves that were often imprinted from childhood.

Expanding, purifying and strengthening the energetic base and foundation of our being that is connected to being rooted on the earth (ie fundamental feeling of stability, security and safety), and this process of bringing the beam of our consciousness into the more denser layers which is essential for true Spiritual growth, integration, maturity and wholeness.

This time in Bali has been like one long 3 month retreat living slowly, simply and deeply. We have really been living like monks or hermits in these past months, and had very little interaction with people here; aside from family and friends coming to visit us. There were a few experiences of meeting some of the distortions of the spiritual scene of Ubud that I will write an article about in the future.

I also realized how much I love to have a big space in which to invite my family and friends to come stay with us. I love having a guest bedroom in my home that is always available for friends and family to come. This makes me feel rich and abundant, knowing that I always have space to welcome my dear ones to wherever I am living on this Earth. I love having a spacious big home!

I love creating beautiful sacred spaces, with fresh flowers, crystals, sage, palo santo and alters. I realized how much love and devotion exists within me to serve others in a very human way with a house, beauty, nourishment and space that is filled with peace, presence, love and a strong coherent field of light and clarity. To create a beautiful room for someone else, is even more fulfilling then to create it for myself—this is what I realized.

I treasure the days sitting on the veranda deck outside at my writing desk and simply watching the rain pour down on the land. Witnessing thunderstorms, and getting goosebumps from the lightning that struck often close to our house—feeling the lightening energetically enter us as much as the land it strikes.

Watching the sunsets at night and seeing the whole sky illuminate in different spectrums of pink glory. Listening to geckos making their sounds at night in the house. Seeing snails in the sink, scorpions in the bathroom, butterfly’s and dragonfly’s flying into our home, along with other insects that we coinhabitated this house with. We even saw a snake in the bathroom one day when my brother visited!

It was magical watching fireflies at night outside the house that were trying to come into our window. They looked like little fairy’s twinkling around our sanctuary and some even made it into our bedroom as we fell a sleep at night.

Falling a sleep every night hearing the waterfall outside our house, some days trickling and other days roaring with power and immensity. Witnessing bats fly around in the sky outside our house at dusk. Feeling the moistness and freshness of the air at dawn. Making tea in the kitchen while seeing this incredibly beautiful green bamboo grove right outside our kitchen window and a river flowing…always hearing the birds chirping and singing.

When you live deeply rooted in nature, it changes the chemistry of our body. When you are living in attunement with nature, you are part of a greater field of intelligence, and the overall ecosystem that supports us all.

I was really able to see how isolated we have made ourselves from Mother Earth in our western world. Living in sterile environments, displaced, disconnected and concealed lives cut off the from the nourishment of the source of that which sustains us.

In the first few weeks of living in this house, and hearing the constant sound of water outside our house through the waterfall and river—it was a big process for me. Within a couple days of moving in, something within me couldn’t stand the constant ‘sound’ of water. I was surprised by this. I missed pure silence, and having the ability to have no stimulus around me.

Hearing the sounds of the water 24/7 was also rewiring my brain, and I felt something in my brain changing and reforming through it being synchronized to water and the sounds of nature.

After a month of moving through this resistance that I had to constantly being infiltrated with the sound of water outside our house, something shifted. The sound of the waterfall and river, transformed from resistance to acceptance and then appreciation.

It was a strong process of sitting with the resistance that arised, witnessing it, being with it, and allowing it to be transformed and melted.

To see how its possible to have so much resistance to something (so much that I thought I couldn’t stay in this house without pure silence), that can slowly change to full appreciation and love—nature did its work with me, and restructured the contours and synapses in my brain and body.

A reintegration into wild natural living, to really live in communion and connection with the Earth and jungle—with everything that entails…

This time of having a home and experiencing this very human aspect of living in a home, has also evoked different qualities of my being to come forth that haven’t simply been as present in these last years of much travel and movement.

For example, I started to brew my own healing teas with butterfly pea tea, lemon, anise, and lemon grass. I would bottle it and put it in the fridge to cool and enjoy drinking it after driving home from being in the city.

I loved creating my own potions and concoctions, and especially drinking butterfly pea tea as its colour when I add lemon (it changes from indigo blue to violet) is the same colour that I often see in my third eye—majestic purple—the colour of the crown chakra.

The mother of my friend in Malaysia gave me a big bag of butterfly pea flowers that were grown in her friends garden and harvested directly from the land. This quality of the medicine woman, witch, and Divine mother archetype was awakened and embodied in these months…

Lots of slow living, contemplation, reflection, integration and writing happened in this house. I am grateful for this house and everything it anchored and awakened within me in this time living here. 💜