The current mental health system is a wasteland of the patriarchy era.
I found out this past week that my family member was finally released from the hospital, after exactly 3 months of being within the hospital system—and what an absolute nightmare it was.
I don’t think I will ever be able to adequately express this horrendous experience, yet I try my best to convey it with words in it’s fullest truth and actuality.
Words cannot describe how painful it was to witness this process, and to have one’s eyes awakened forcefully and brutally to the atrocities, archaic methods and absolute complete lack of understanding that exists within the current mental health system.
It really is like medieval times we are living in within certain structures of society.
During these months, of spending almost every day visiting a mental health hospital I left almost every time with tears of despair in my eyes.
Every time I entered the hospital my legs would become weak, and I felt like I was going to faint. The blood would drain out of my body slowly, and I felt the energetic field of suppression, patriarchal domination, and control.
I felt weak, just by stepping foot into the hospital—which is supposed to be a place of healing and recovery. Imagine what it does to one’s body, mind, psyche, heart and soul by having to stay in such a place for an extended time!
In all of my travels around the world to over 60+ countries, and having lived abroad in North America, Europe and Asia—I have never experienced such a low vibrational, dark, dense and completely hopeless environment than the mental health unit within the hospitals in Canada. It is a disgrace on our humanity.
It was the most depressing and bleak environment I have ever encountered. Sitting in the lounge area, with many of the people being detained against their will, and witnessing how they were being treated was like a brutal slap of reality in my face. The lowest of the low.
The questions that arised within me: Can this really be a place of healing and recovery? Is it possible that this energetic field of hopelessness, pain and depression could be even worse? How is it possible that humans that are nurses and doctors can treat and talk to other humans going through deep processes the way they do? Where is their humanity? What has happened to this world?
I can with full truthfulness say that I, as a highly energetic sensitive being, with strong subtle perceptions—would not be able to live for more then 1 day in such an environment. I would go crazy.
Rooms with fluorescent lights and no windows, food that contains absolutely no life force energy and is dead, a space with no silence and constant loud announcements on the PA, not being able to go outside and breathe fresh air, having no privacy, and being forced to be governed by the dictatorial authority of psychiatrists and doctors (although well intentioned, severely lacking awareness, compassion and empathy) is hell in it’s purest form.
And my family member, who is also a sensitive being—lived this hell for the past 3 months—a true warrior of light.
If you can survive and live in the most horrific of conditions of what our society has created, and come out with your light still intact and shining—these people deserve a medal of honour for their resilience, courage, perseverance and capacity to live the unbearable and inhumane.
Yet sadly, many don’t come out of this hospital system in good shape. It’s a place that largely perpetrates sickness, as the system itself is severely SICK.
Not only within hospitals, but the world at large. So many humans are experiencing horrific conditions right now in the world.
Soul leadership is a necessary and essential part of creating change and transformation on this Earth.
Divine Feminine Soul Leadership requires us to step into our power as heart and soul centred leaders, and lead from the revolution of our heart. To burn away our complacency, conditionings, fears, inhibitions and mental constructs—everything that binds us—to unleash and free the power of our souls on this Earth.
This experience in these months solidified the warrior of light within me. Even though I may appear to be at times a shining, angelic, graceful, light, fairy essence being—make no mistake—this is one expression and layer of my being, yet at the heart of who I am, is a powerful warrior of light, unwaveringly devoted to love, and rooted in unshakable truth.
There is a ruthless grenade of a divine protectress within me, that stands emblazoned with a sword of light in hand, wings of golden Divine light set on fire, burning in the fires of God—to bring about Divine Justice on this Earth and to abolish darkness (ignorance), and liberate souls back into their true nature of their God essence.
Everything that I stand for, embody and share—was tested like smouldering iron—through this experience that showed me the exact polarity of what I am. The complete opposite spectrum to my being and incarnation.
Everything that comes to us forges us into the beings that we are meant to be on this Earth. Never think that anything is random or accident.
Everything is divinely orchestrated in divine perfection, and as much as our human self may not be able to perceive the greater all encompassing picture in the totality of life—we must have the humility to bow our heads to life and trust the greater symphony.
We must use our most heart breaking, crucifying, and horrific experiences as alchemical gold in the fire of truth, to strengthen us instead of weaken us.
We are on this Earth to be powerful, heart centred, illuminated beings of light—to govern the dawn of the Golden Age that is upon us….and when beckoning the golden age onto this Earth, all of the final structures of domination, control, and patriarchal expressions will come up for one last battle of existence—and sometimes we will have very personal experiences within these structures.
What I can say today, that I wouldn’t have been able to say months ago is that I am grateful for this experience that life made me face. I am grateful for all the pain, gut wrenching and heart breaking turmoil that exploded like dynamite within me.
I am grateful for all the dying that happened internally, so that more of my True Nature could take up providence within. For the nonessential to be purified into the essential.
Like a grenade that goes off, it deepened my being, it opened my eyes to the world—and lit the fire within to burn ever stronger then ever before, with a heart that's been broken open even more by fierce grace.
I wish us all deep resilience and the courage to meet life authentically and powerfully.