How would you live if you were fully free of fear? ☾ ✞ ☽

How would you live if you were fully free of fear?
What action would you take if you didn’t feel afraid?
What would your Life look like if you lived in a constant state of Love and Trust?

All my life, I have felt fear every time I decided I was going to do something that mattered. Whether that was following my inner guidance, traveling to a foreign country or stepping beyond my comfort zone.

I have learned to make friends with fear. To become comfortable with fear, and to accept it as a part of this matrix of life.

REMEMBER: Fear is just fear. ∞

The problem with fear, is only when we as humans see it for something its not. We give it too much power. Instead of feeling the power within ourselves, we give fear our power.

Many people experience so much fear, that actually blocks them from living their Highest Destiny life that they are meant to live.

We are not on this Earth to live in cages. We are not here to live as slaves. We are not here to be “small”.

We are infinite Creators of Oneness, unified in God, Powerful Radiant Fully Alive Awake Beings of Light and Consciousness that are here to live fully, totally becoming our purest and truest Divine Essence and Expression. We are here to live and create Heaven on Earth. We are here to be fully liberated sparks of Infinity, expressing…becoming…and expanding into our fullest potential. 

The starlight we see in the sky, is a reflection of the starlight that dwells within our own Being. 

Don’t allow fear to stop you from living the life you are meant to live. 
Never forget the magnificence of your being.
Never forget that you were born on this Earth for a Divine Purpose.
Never forget that you are pure undiluted Love at the core of your essence. 
Never forget that you CAN live in a constant state of Love and Trust, where you become the Miracle of Life; unified with all of Creation.

Fear is not meant to block you at the door from becoming who you are meant to become and doing what you need to do in this Life.

Fear is there to CHALLENGE you in your strength of COMMITMENT and CONVICTION to fully live your truth, and step beyond the veils of the ordinary into the extraordinary.

Don’t be satisfied with complacency. We see it everyday.

Be bold and walk your own unique path of your Highest Resonance, and even if that means walking alone for sometime…walk alone.
Being true to one’s self hasn’t always been easy, buts its definitely worth it. 

Dare to be different, and follow your highest guidance in this life.
Don’t compromise. Live fully and completely. And love without limits. We all have the capacity to love totally, freely and wildly. 
When fear is melted back into Love, only love remains.
Just as darkness is transmuted back into the Infinite Light. 

We are all going to “die” one day. 
Remember: YOUR SOUL IS ETERNAL. <3
You might as well live freely while you are here on this Earth. 
Making your life your masterpiece. 
Life is art. You are art.
Service to All.
Living in innocent joy.
SPARKLING eyes.
Enrapturing in ecstasy.

There is a great service that one brings to this Earth when they break the chains of fear, and fully blossom into their fullest actualization and expression.

Next time you feel fear, SMILE and LOVE the fear.
Know you are on the way of expanding, growing and evolving past the edges that once confined you…into an even more expanded, crystalline and beautiful being that you are. 

Embody what you love.
You are an Extraordinary Being.

When you make evolution, growth and expansion your number one commitment; fear will smile back at you and say “thank you” for seeing through me and choosing to pass through the initiations that come from walking your path boldly, truly, and fiercely committed to something much greater…rooted in a deeper Truth and in Service to Life, as opposed to being encaged by one of life’s initiators—known to many as “fear”. 

May we all come home to our Infinite Nature and True Essential Light,

Nicole
☾ ✞ ☽

Do What You Love

When I was traveling last month in the South of France, I received an interesting email through my website from a University Professor from Ghent University in Belgium. 

She is a researcher in Gender Studies and is currently based in Berlin for a year doing a research project on Women’s Wellbeing and Spirituality today. She had already interviewed women in Belgium and the Netherlands who are active in leading and facilitating Women Circle’s and Festivals, along with Coaches who work with notions of Feminine Power, Feminine Essence and the Sacred Feminine. It turns out she came across my website and was intrigued with what I am doing. She was reaching out to me in the hopes that she could expand her research and bring in a more international focus by interviewing me. 

Last week, I met with her at a cafe in Berlin and we did the interview. She was curious about my personal journey and the work I have been doing with women around the world this past year. It was a fascinating experience to be interviewed by an academic professor on the topic of WOMEN’S SPIRITUALITY, WELL BEING and the SACRED FEMININE. Since her research project is ethnographical, she wanted to participate in a women’s circle. 

I never in my life would have imagined that one day a university professor would want to interview me on Women’s Spirituality and about the Sacred Women Circle’s I have been leading and facilitating this past year. When I did my Masters degree in Transpersonal Psychology (the study of psychology, spirituality and consciousness) from a university in California; I had thought that that was one of the only universities in the world that offered academic programs in the realms of spirituality, self actualization and bridging modern day spirituality with western psychology. There definitely are not that many universities (yet) that are so liberal and open to having academic disciplines in spirituality, and that are more holistic in nature encompassing body, mind, heart and soul—as opposed to just the mental realm. 

So when I received this submission on my website, I was amazed and in awe. And Excited! :D

The reason I share this today is for the reminder it has brought me: 

~ DO WHAT YOU LOVE ~

Follow your heart and you will always be successful. Sometimes the fruit doesn’t ripen until the perfect timing. You can’t always see the whole path ahead of you, but you can feel the magical string of your inner knowing taking you on your golden Highest Destiny path. Study what you LOVE. Live what you love. Do what you love, even when the world tells you to be “practical, careful, logical, and reasonable”. Life rewards the BRAVE. Life rewards those that trailblazer their own unique path and carve out their own unique way of living and being in the world. You will always be supported when you are being true to yourself. 

And what I continue to discover on the path, is that the more closely you are in true alignment with what you are really meant to be doing in the world, the more the path expands and widens like a sunflower stretching open to the sun. Things come to you effortlessly, and grace prevails the path…because when you are in internal alignment, you are simultaneously in alignment with All of Life and Creation. You are serving something much greater then yourself when you come into full alignment and live from the internal impetus of direction, action, inspiration and creation. 

Everything and anything is possible. 
Everything and anything is possible.
Everything and anything is possible.

~ Nicole

At the Airport in Marseille

Today something happened that I have never experienced before when traveling. I booked a flight from Marseille to Berlin yesterday afternoon. I felt this pull to return to Berlin after traveling the past 3 weeks in Europe, and I also wanted to attend an event tonight that was happening at 7pm in Berlin. The flight I originally booked would have arrived in Berlin at 4pm. When I woke up this morning I got a notification from German Wings that my flight was delayed 3 hours from 11:10am to 2:10pm. I have never had a flight been delayed 3 hours in all my years of traveling. I arrived at the airport at 12:30pm and went through security and waited at the gate. Then I received another notification that my flight was being delayed to 3:30pm. As I was sitting in the airport waiting, I started to really go within and check whether I was meant to take this flight that I booked. In all the other times I have travelled, there has been much ease and grace...and never a long delay like this. This was the first time I was experiencing multiple delays and being stuck in an airport for such a long time (which is not my favorite place to be stuck for so many hours when you are extremely energetically sensitive and an empath). 

I continued to wait, and then I received another notification that my flight was being delayed yet again until 4:10pm. What are the chances? By this point, I really wasn't so sure I was meant to take the flight...and something felt really off. In my life experience, when multiple things start to go wrong its really a warning sign for me to pay attention and have a greater awareness of my next steps. 

As they started to board, I started to feel sick...and it didn't feel good to get on the plane. Yet at the time, even not having a good feeling about boarding the flight wasn't a strong enough sign for me to not board the flight; so I asked for another sign as a confirmation. Life always gives us signs and communicates with us through synchronicity and events if we are willing to see the deeper meaning and messages being relayed through these events. As I was lined up to board, and one of the last people in line the man scanned my boarding pass and it was rejected by the system. He scanned it again, and it wasn't working. Then he told me that I *WASN'T* even checked in for this flight!!! (...when I checked in online yesterday, and also double checked this morning again that I was checked in after receiving the first notification of my flight delay). Wow.

By this moment, I had such strong goosebumps go through me....and felt this wave of energy in my crown chakra which is a strong sign for me to be aware and really listen. I knew in that moment that I wasn't supposed to get on that plane. I couldn't get on the plane. Logically and rationally it didn't make any sense, yet it seemed like all of Life was trying to tell me not to fly today. Everyone else boarded and I knew I couldn't get on the plane with seeing all the signs and messages that were telling me not to. I asked the man if anyone else had the same problem today with their boarding pass and not being checked in and he said nobody else--only me. Out of 106 people boarding the plane, my boarding pass was the only one being rejected by the computer system and was mysteriously not "checked in" for this flight. Could the signs be any clearer?

So I have one more night in Provence...just had a bath, drinking tea and laying down with a candle lit beside my bed. Trusting life. Trusting the signs, even when in this moment I have no idea why I wasn't meant to take that flight today. This has never happened before in my life. I do know that everything happens for a reason, and sometimes not getting what you want is a touch of grace. In this moment I don't have the answer...maybe I will know one day, or maybe I will never know why I wasn't meant to fly today--what I am sure about is that there is a higher force that we can call God/Life/Universe (our expanded Self) that always takes care of us and is able to see the whole picture, even when my human self doesn't always have the answers. Surrender and trust

Activating the Sacred Feminine: 6 Months in Berlin

Thank you Berlin for being my playground and training ground the past 6 months. I realized I did 17 Sacred Women Circle’s + Workshops and 5 Sacred Feminine Retreats during this time with over 213+ women from around the world! A total of 22 events during these last months. Synchronistically, it turns out that the number 22 is also my Master Number in numerology; with 22 being the "Master Builder". 

6 months ago I was on the island of Kauai, Hawaii. I was standing in the sacred waters of Wai'ale'ale during a 10 hour internal vision quest and journey. I was asking life what my next steps were. In the silence of the valley, I heard a small gentle voice within say clearly: “GO BACK TO BERLIN AND ACTIVATE THE SACRED FEMININE WITHIN WOMEN AND THE CITY". I knew I had to go. I felt this divine calling and mission very strongly. During this time, I was going through many intense experiences and everything had disintegrated in my life that was not a part of my true path. I felt like I was being annihilated and crucified on the cross. I had never experienced such deep pain since I was 19 years old going through my first dark night of the soul period of my life. 

Anytime we are not truly on our authentic path, life will come in and burn, dissolve and disintegrate whatever is holding you back from truly living your sacred purpose and service. And boy, did the Goddess come into my life so fiercely to bring me back to my divine mission. 

Many people around me told me not to go back to Berlin. A friend and mentor at the time, a woman who I deeply admired and looked up to as a source of inspiration was telling me not to return to Berlin and instead I should continue with my education and do my Ph.D in Spiritual Psychology. She advised me to drop the spiritual world for a bit, and go back into psychology and do my doctorate. Even though I appreciated her guidance, the voice of my own soul spoke to me so strongly…the truth that resided within me was so potent and clear, that I knew I had to follow my own inner voice as opposed to listening to someone else. It takes so much courage to live a life where you follow your own inner guidance, and do not listen to others over your own inner knowing…even when these people might be guides, teachers or people you look up to in someway. The truth is that **ONLY YOU KNOW** what you have to do in this lifetime. Others can point us in directions, yet you must remain sovereign in your own inner authority to your soul.

I went back to Berlin for 1 reason—to share, activate, anchor, embody and ignite the sacred feminine once again. 

This work that I have been summoned to do, has been infused with nothing less then Divine Grace. I did not choose this work, it chose me. It called to me. It beckoned me to remember. Because it has been so strongly a “transpersonal” calling (beyond the personal self), it has nourished me and ignited within me so much passion, dedication, commitment, discipline, focus, courage, ease and grace. There is something magical that happens when our actions our aligned with the greater intelligence and wisdom of the universe. When we are serving the greater calls of evolution, evolution supports us 100%. This I know as truth.

A holy man in Kauai once said to me, “The greatest gift is to have more of God to work through you. Real work is allowing God to manifest love through you. If that’s not happening, then its not real work. Get to work—that means to go back to God.” <3

During these past 6 months I was in 6 countries... I travelled from Germany to Switzerland, England, Holland, Denmark and Greece. When I haven’t been doing this work that I love so much, my life in Berlin has been so rich, colorful and full. I have been meeting up with friends…going to the spa/sauna…eating my favorite foods….raw vegan ice-cream, chia bowls, fresh pressed juices and acai bowls. I’ve been painting my White Tara Tibetan Thangka painting. I did a workshop at the Berlin Forever Now Festival and also one in Zurich, Switzerland. I attended a 5 day Tantra Massage Seminar for women in the German countryside. I've taken the time to receive bodywork such as Shiatsu, Lomi Lomi and tantra massage. Did a juice cleanse and went to a Crystal Sauna with healing salt waters. Attended the Deva Premal concert, FemmeQ Conference, and Peruqois's powerful workshop in Amsterdam. I was asked to model for my friend's Ancient Feminine jewelry line launching this summer and had an amazing photoshoot...and I spent a whole month on the magical Greek island of Corfu attending a month long retreat with the Awakening Women Institute. When I was in Berlin this summer, I went into nature and swam in the lakes and did a sweat lodge ceremony for the first time in my life. ALL OF THIS BEAUTY, ABUNDANCE and FULLNESS--opened in my life as a portal through me being true to the higher calling of love that was seeking expression through my being. The form of how this Divine Love has crystalized through me has been through the Sacred Women Circle's and workshops. 

From a young age, my mom often could not understand why I was always doing so much. She often told me I do too much. Yet, this is the only way I know how to live…full on….living fully….in a completely expanded state of potentiality and expansion. I feel so much expansion and unlimited potentiality within myself, that there is still so much more to be actualized. So much fire that burns inside me. So much thats meant to take root and fully blossom. Human potential, self actualization and entering the realms of extraordinary have been one of my main passions since I was a young girl. My thirst and hunger.

In essence, what I've learned is that when you have the courage to follow your heart and soul, being led by a higher impetus that serves evolution, humanity and all of life--you will be supported. You will THRIVE. You will overflow in all ways and your life will be a living breathing testament of what is possible. Being in service to God/Life/Goddess/All That Is is the nectar of a life infused with grace...not my will, but thy will be done. 

Much love,
Nicole

This is [not] the Feminine.

This year has been a year of major initiations for me. The stronger the calling I have felt to do this Sacred Feminine work with women around the world, the more I have experienced the shadows of the feminine coming to the surface...to be seen, transmuted and cleared. The more committed I am to unifying women, bringing women back together in sacred circle, sisterhood, restoring the sacred feminine light and embodying the Divine Feminine; the more I have been faced with the unhealthy aspects of the feminine--jealousy, gossiping, competing, backstabbing, controlling, bitchiness, and manipulation. This is [not] the Feminine. These are distortions.

The template of true sisterhood is already in us.
The pristine essence of sisterhood is true, beautiful, pure and clear.
Authentic womanhood.

Something that I have noticed recently, is that a woman may think that her "inner masculine" is just fine, and want to now strengthen her connection to her “inner feminine”, without even realizing that what she may perceive as her “healthy” masculine energy is actually not healthy masculine energy at all. It’s the shadow of the masculine, and an Inner Patriarch that resides within disguised as the masculine. 

“What we mistake as “fine” is our unconscious submission to our inner Pushers, Perfectionists, Controllers and Critics—or our Inner Patriarchs. What most of us consider to be “masculine” is the deranged, patriarchal masculine—one that is equally damaging to men and women. We mistake the inner Patriarch for the Divine Masculine. He’s what brings us to women’s work in the first place. In this way, we come here believing that the “masculine” is the problem and the answer is to completely shun this part of ourselves by focusing only on our “feminine”.” -Sara Avant Stover, The Book of She: Your Heroine’s Journey into the Heart of Feminine Power.

Yet, its really the integration and wholeness of both energies within that bring us back into true union.

True masculine energy expressed through a man or a woman, exerts power WITHOUT force and manipulation. 
Rooted in the heart and in service to love, for all beings.

True power is gentle and strong, not forceful and domineering.
True power is gentle and strong, not forceful and domineering.
True power is gentle and strong, not forceful and domineering.

May we all recognize the last threads of patriarchy that are not just reflected externally in the world (or in men), but also are silently operating within ourselves…and in us women: domination, control, forcefulness, aggression, manipulation, power over others etc. The patriarchy is not just ingrained in men, its also programmed deeply within the psyches of women. This is what has been brought to the light recently for me to see. Being physically a woman, yet run by the Inner Patriarch. 

Just as the purity of the sacred feminine is growing and being restored now on a global level, the true healthy divine masculine is very much needed in union with the sacred feminine. I love, respect, honor and bow to the true Divine Masculine within men and women. The shadows of the masculine and the feminine are complete. For us to birth a new world and future thats in alignment with what we all know is possible, the purity of the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine templates need to be resurrected and restored back into its original purity, and this means the complete transmutation of any distortions in these fields. As within, so without. ☥

~ Nicole Hemmer